Happy New Year! 2016 was yet another example of how the best made plans are hatched with good intentions but life will never allow you that much control. In fact, this last year proved that I am not at all in control and that is something I am learning to deal with. My catch phrase for the last six months of the year became quite simply
“Go with the flow and let it go.”
So much has happened that I will do my best to reflect and fill in the missing pieces.
January: Peaceful and snowy, the year began with C and I in Wisco enjoying this rare time together, fixing up the house, and trying to find ways to enjoy the snow.
February: C left, my aunt and uncle left, but the snow remained. I had gained a literal ton of weight and was starting to feel pretty down in the dumps. My only outlets to the real world were trips to Walmart, two property management jobs, and remotely working for my old job in California.
March: Still snowing, still alone, still fat and still depressed. But I’d had it! Enough was enough! I started taking Plexus, exercising, and cooking new food. My only source of sanity being my daily FB chats with Angelina. Desperate housewives banning together!
April: Still snowing but starting to see the light of day again. The aunt and uncle returned, I took an amazing stained glass class, severed ties with my old job after some unnecessary backstabbing and drama, starting to feel better and losing weight and even had a job interview…after my entire shelving unit crashed down in my office taking out my brand new iMac and the last shreds of my sanity.
May: Yes, still snowing! I made the mistake of planting flowers because I couldn’t take it any longer just to have the snow kill it all in one swipe. Started the Spartacus workouts and felt amazing!!
June: Ah June, the beginning of the biggest nightmare of my life. Family drama. Big time.
July: Hot. Humid. Millions of mosquitos. Family drama to the max. C came out for my birthday and we had the best time ever after not seeing each other for 5 months. Somehow mustered up every ounce of courage I had and went zip lining. Still exercising and feeling the best I ever have. Got a job and made my first real friend.
August: Family drama just won’t stop and I’m feeling like a captive in my own home. Fly to CA for C’s birthday. Surprise! We got married!! Flew back to Wisco and within a week was driving myself and the livestock back to CA for a few months.
September: Off grid camper life but loving every minute of seeing my friends and C again. Fell off the excercise wagon, gained a little weight…
October: Still in CA! Not much to report…
November: Still in CA! Traveled to NYC for the first time ever and fell head over heels in love. Cubs win the World Series!!!!!!!!!!
December: Still in CA, enjoying life and taking each day as it comes. Avoiding Wisco for obvious reasons and trying to figure out a game plan for the future.
I’m certain there were more highlights and lowlights of the year, but in a glance this is what I remember. 2017 should hold true to the last few years and will be full of twists, turns, and surprises. We are not sure what we will be doing about the Wisco house but I am certain that CA will be my permanent residence again for the next several years. I’m emotionally unsettled about this. I LOVE California and I am so glad to be home. But I miss my house and I’m sad that the adventure didn’t turn out the way I had hoped. I gave it a solid try but now have too many reasons that keep me from wanting to go back. It’s sad and unfortunate that things had to happen the way they did. Relationships got damaged and so did my sense of emotional safety.
I’m not sure what 2017 has in store for me but as always, I approach this fresh start with the hope for better things, a renewed motivation for self improvement, and a determination to keep trying. My word for the year is JUMP. I’ve never had a word before but when I heard it, I knew it was mine. I’m going to JUMP at opportunities, JUMP at success, and JUMP whole heartedly into whatever comes my way.
Cheers to a new year and it is my wish that your new year is full of everything that makes you happy!